He used to fit in the crook of my arm. When he was small. This tiny little breathing, heart beating thing that grew in me. He used to nurse on my breast. And fall asleep on my chest. And spit up and wet all over every inch of me. He…

Staring at fake nails tips and polish in a NYC Walgreens I had to sit down. I was so very exhausted and tired and couldn’t hold my then (I miss) size 4 body weight anymore. I shook myself together. Had a meeting set to network and was determined to create…

I feel numb. And not at all as numb as I think I’m supposed to feel. Feelings these last two days are weird. Strange. They are… a human experience I’ve felt before but never believe I’m supposed to feel again. Knowing though, I will. I’m supposed to be celebrating the…

We’ve all cut our fingers, sliced like a narrow paper cut. We’ve all felt the glass cup crack in our hands. We’ve all heard the sound of the plate fall from the drying rack onto the tile floor. We’ve all wished in moments time could roll back just for seconds. …

My son. Just shy of ten. Pushing maybe 6 inches away from my height with all the strength and frontal lobe of a child forty years younger…just looked me in the eye and decided… he would win. If he had to. On brut strength. He pushed me once. Then twice…

On a random Sunday in 2021 about one in the afternoon, I received my first dose of the coronavirus vaccine. I cried a little. I wept. I was so full of gratitude. Just days before my neighbor called out for me from behind her fence, “Were you able to schedule…

There we were. In the year that brought us eight months of April, on day five of Tuesday and the weekend suddenly became a Saturday we’d never known before that could last forever. And millions of people, coast to coast, across the globe, took to the streets in a spontaneous…

Ivan took his life in August. I was twenty something. Early twenty something. It’s so weird to not even be able to recall my exact age or the range of year or specific date anymore. Because I told myself, I’d never forget and always remember where and when. I think…

I promise you this is the easiest shrimp recipe you’ll find. It’s been my #StayAtHome go to when I don’t want to order in and I, once again, forgot to defrost the hamburger. Start with buying some frozen raw large or jumbo shrimp. This part matters, first, because it’s something…